Sorry for my lack of typing these days...I just dont feel like it haha.
But I have to learn to get over my feelings and JUST DO IT.
Recently I faced attacks from the enemy, and surprise surprise, I have been his assistant in accusing myself.
I often do not feel like drawing near to God, or spending time before God, and I feel like I am forcing myself to do so. I really questioned my heart in this, and thats when the accusations came.
I kept comparing myself to the days when I longed to draw near to God every chance I got, when I could write a new poem or song to God almost everyday. I started to feel like I am falling backwards now and my feelings get in the way.
Man I really have to stop assisting the enemy. It makes me feel so pressured and not good enough.
But God gave me a song to sing this week. "By You Now Is The Best" (Songs of My Heart 7, P.25)
I was so touched that God wants to enjoy the "present-tense" of me! He wants me NOW because is WITH me NOW! It doesnt matter what happened or how I was before, He just wants me now. I could really feel His embrace and be so comfortable in Him no matter what my feelings are.
And so wonderful we sang that song in the worship yesterday! I really enjoyed it, and the worship was so full of God's presence. I have to improve in voicing out again, but all I want to do is enjoy the Lord, and not let voicing out be my focus.
Anyways, I am really glad that God is always there for me. His love is ever-fresh and never changing. I am glad I have this anchor in my life forever.
Don't live upon feelings, but upon the truth!
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our conversation tonight had a healing effect on me. thank you! and thank God.
so truee x]
In my 2nd trip to Fiji last year [Dec-Jan], my quality DNG was severely suppressed by the enemy 'cause of the busyness [esp cos of the few number of coworkers during that time too ><]. But it was during that trip that I understood more why Paul said in Philippians 3:13,
"one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,"
It's true what you say katy x] They love every version of us hehe...a love with no regrets, no change of shadow x] E>
Actually, I have something to share with you two...have wanted to for a while now, just never got the chance to ><. Wait for my email x]
thanks for your sharings!!! your blogs are my continual support x]
praying for you guys for midsems!!! =D
but plz pray for me! my finals are starting next week xD
sit on BaBa's lap while studying KEKEKE He will teach us homework xD
And tell Him to read the textbook to you!!! HAHAHHAHA readings are so dry...but not when a daddy reads to his daughter hehehehe x] E>E>E>
oOOooooohhhhh I LOVE YOU TWO BaBa's baby girlsss xD kekekekekeke E>E>E>
and our BIG BRO is praying to BaBa for usssss...non-stop HAHAHHA!!!
and BaBa just delights SO MUCH in listening to His beloved Boy ask for love gifts to give His lil sisters x] mMMmMmmmmm ><><><
"Keep asking, keep asking!!! Ohhhh you are sOOOooo adorable! Your heart is most beautiful x]"
[hehe yauyau once shared this with me!!! =D]
oHHH I LOVE YOU GORGOR AND BABA!!!!! xD E>
and of course Spirit for telling us thissssss!!! >3<
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