whoa

for some reason i feel so demotivated this exam period....i do not have a sense of urgency to study even though ive got 2 exams tmw and have barely studied for them.

But i just finished my MBB final today! There was so much to know man, and it was so early in the morning, I felt bad just having 3mins to dntG.
So I went to dntG right after my exam! The only quiet place without disturbance for my already crazy mind was in a lecture hall at WMC haha! First time ever dntG in an empty lecture hall, it was good!

I felt like I entered into His inner chambers! I must say that my quality and quantity of my dntG has decreased ever since getting busy with school, but today I was able to experience Him so deeply!

I meditated on how infinitely great and all-knowing my Abba is! Indeed when I realized how much stuff I had to know for my exam, and uh, I didnt even understand half of it, it helped me to realize how all-knowing and powerful my Abba is! Truly its beyond our understanding! I mean, I cant even understand one particular part of His creation, His love to me is even greater than this! I really felt His blessing upon me! He is sooo super all-knowing and indeed He will know how to bless me! And His blessing is ever-active always upon me in every single thing that I do! I feel so restful to know that I have a Father like this!

And the Lord let me know His heart of longing to me again. I was lead to sing the song that I wrote last week (ha, He always does this! Letting me experience Him deeper through things that I write!). I was so touched that the Lord is so patient with us. His heart has been longing and waiting for us since eternity past. And for this, He even committed Himself to be a man. But when He took this greatest action, the ones whom He came for still turned away from Him! Yet, I believe that He His love was never discouraged, He never stopped this love. He was so super focused on gaining us. Never did He give up or even have the slightest thought of doing so. I understand His desperation for us more, it is so great. It really motivates me to talk to Him more and to be closer to Him. He has been waiting for soo long! And now He has done EVERYTHING He can, He is just waiting for our response! I really want to respond to Him and give my time to Him at the very least!

I'm just so happy to experience the Lord. I realized that its my great blessing, and that many others may not have the privilege of knowing how to experience Him deeply like this! Thats why I wanted to share this! It may be simple, but its my treasure! :)