Personal Love in this Love Plan

I want to capture the light God gave to me tonight. His love plan is so grand, includes so many things, to come together and work together. Yet in His plan, there is me. There is my part. A part that no one can replace. No wonder God needs me!

Right now as I sit here and type this with grateful tears, I am more clear of God's personal calling upon me. When God personally called me, He told me that He needed me, and needed my whole heart to love Him. Now I understand more why. Because I play such an important role in His love plan. Without me, He is missing a part. He needs my response to Him. This response, no one can replace. No wonder He needs my whole heart to love Him, He needs such response so I can respond to Him all my life and give my whole life to Him.

I am so touched by God's personal love upon me in this love plan. He has molded me and changed my life. Not only that, but patiently wait for me to change, so that He could appear to me, to call me, and then to understand His heart and His commission.
I cannot imagine how long God has been waiting to reveal these to me, how long He has been planning this. How much He did to work things together so I can come to this point. But He is so patient, He keeps leading me gently, bringing me to progress in His personal plan for me, while also progressing in His grand plan!
Now as I am progressing, I can be trained by Him to be more and more glorious, and also be closer and closer to Him to become more and more mature.
I didnt know what this maturity meant before. Before we left Cape Town in this March, an older brother told me that he was amazed by my spiritual maturity. I didnt know what this meant, but now I know it more clearly. I feel that I can understand God's heart more and more. I can be more sensitive to His guidance. I can feel His love more and more easily.

And I can see throughout these few years, God has been molding me to become more and more glorious. Through different difficulties I face, I can have different glorious victories and experiences that train up my faith. Come to think of it, ever since I decided to devote my life to the Lord, I've had more sufferings than before. Wow...I didnt realize this until right now this moment! But yes its actually true. I've never had such struggles and trials in my life before, but now I see how glorious I become because I overcame it. And to be honest, it wasnt something that made me very depressed, but it was just something I knew I needed to face and go through (maybe thats why I didnt realize it).

Wow wow wow! I cant wait to progress even further in this wonderful plan of His! The more I understand the story of Joseph, the more I can apply it to myself! I feel like Joseph, because I am a second generation, hearing the stories of the past revivals from my parents and from brothers and sisters around me. I always hear stories of God's grace and commission in our church. Just like Joseph and his brothers who heard stories of how God called Abraham, from Abraham himself, from Jacob and others. I believe they will always hear of how God has chosen them, and made a promise to them. Similar to me, and perhaps other second generations and b/s who grew up hearing about God, and about draw near to God, about God's plan, His commission, His family. I realize deeper and deeper, the key is whether or not you treasure it.
To be honest, before, I was just like Joseph's brothers, I heard it, but looked lightly upon it. It was just stories to me, they were interesting, but I didnt see how it connected to my life. But God slowly molded me, and kept my heart pure to love Him, till one day when I was 17, He called me. This changed me to treasure God Himself. Later, when I understood God's commission and what He wants us to do, I really treasured His commission...therefore, I have become like Joseph haha. A person who treasures God's promise and commission, and has faith in Him. I also see my personal part, and how my life is deeply connected with God's plan!
WOOHOO! I am so happy and joyful and excited! My life is soooo super worth living! Because I know what the direction and goal is!! YAY YAY YAY!!

May my heart ever be faithful to Him. I want to strive to end. I dont want to go astray, but to always treasure Him. Treasure His commission. I desire that my heart be always pure towards Him, loving Him wholeheartedly.

Brothers and sisters! Lets strive on for the Lord! Be clear of His commission, your goal and vision in this life and in His plan! See you at the finish line! ;)